05/04/26 :: Inconsistency is a form of consistency!

It's been awhile since I've written, oops. I did abandon this site for awhile because I was overall unhappy with how it looked and the lack of direction. But I am back with a vengeance! An indie web inspired vengeance.

I became very inspired browsing other people's sites and deciding that I was in the mood to start practising radical acceptance of myself. I am not cringe and I have much creativity to share with the world, and by extension, the web! So this is the new and improved Patchwork HQ, though I do like this blog page too much to ever properly change it.

My life hasn't changed too much since the last day I posted, I am still in law school and struggling deeply (actively ignoring an essay I have due in 4 days as I write this, but it's ok). I have lost some friendships and gained them, but I fear that is just part of adulthood I am slowly becoming more and more adjusted to as time goes on. 2026's theme is adjustment! Learning to grow in what environments given. My inspiration is a dandelion growing in the crack in the pavement outside my front door at home.

2025 ENTRIES
24/11/25 :: Silly collage

Just made a little collage inspired by zombiegrrrrl's January wrap on Substack!

07/11/25 :: Long time, no see

Going home for reading week meant I had absolutely no access to Neocities since I am physically incapable of remembering passwords. But I'm back! Back at my dear PC where I can stare longingly at the Dispatch Steam page without buying it. Broke student yearning for video games, more common than you think.

I'm working towards trying to be less brainrotted. More reading even though I am very inconsistent with it (still currently reading Foundation after a month with half left to go, lol). Foundation and Shuggie Bain are my current reads - Shuggie Bain specifically being for my book club! Young Mungo by Douglas Stuart is my absolute favourite book of all time so I will never complain about reading another Stuart. Joining Book Club is a big step for me I feel in getting out more instead of rotting in my flat. I write more now too! Currently focused on a long term project of a modern AU Dragon Age fanfic actually inspired by Stuart's writing style.

Also started an album a day notebook in hopes of discovering more music. I like having my little pocket notebook with silly logs in there. Gives me something new to indulge in when wandering through the city to my classes.

Also trying to be more consistent with going my classes, but I will believe it when it happens. Today being one of those times, even if I hate Tort tutorials.

15/10/25 :: Things that've happened this month
  • Went to see Lady Gaga live!
    • The show was absolutely fucking bonkers. I mean, it's one of those concerts that can be considered a 'show' instead of just a regular thing. The amount of choreography and stagework is absolutely demented. My arms hurt so bad after 'putting my paws up' every 2 minutes.
  • My IRL friendgroup from back home imploded.
    • Something I should've expected sooner with how things have been going. I am currently the child of divorce between two of my best friends after their latest spat that I am very unsure they will come back from.
  • Started my 2nd year of university and moved in to my new place.
    • Living closer to the city is so fun, but the law department of this uni and me have mad beef. If they send me an automated response to a complaint one more time, I'm over it!
  • Joined a book club to try and be more social - one friend already acquired.
  • Started collecting Smiskis. I will never financially recover.
14/10/25 :: Ramble

Finally getting around to working on my site more, which is a bit of a lie. I'm using a lot of this as an excuse to avoid some of my university work. It's the third week of my 2nd year of university for law and still haven't gotten a full timetable so there's so many gaps in my time! So much reading to do, but none of it matters but it also does matter yet it doesn't? It's very confusing on what they want us to do right now, so I'd rather try to figure out how to code a webpage instead, lol.

Personally, I'm so happy to have discovered Neocities and starting to learn how to code pages by picking and choosing templates. This site is a customised version of the Vaporeon by itinere to fit my personal style (love tweed too much to not use it). I don't know if customising is the most educational but I feel like I'm getting smarter somehow. Not to be one of those people, but I really do wish I was born earlier so I could have been around for the era of personal sites being the norm instead of the conglomerate social media sites now. Oh, to have lived in the early 2000s with a disgustingly over customised site where I can ramble like a madman.

Coding has taken up a bit of a space where writing used to be since I've been stuck in a slump for awhile. I really miss being able to write so so much just off the cuff - but I'm also very aware that what I used to write was not the best. I'm going to attempt to write more often, I want to post more fanfics! Check me out on AO3, I'll be hopefully posting more Dragon Age or even some Foundation fanfics soon when I actually lock in instead of drifting in the wind multitasking everything.
This blog's more just to dump my thoughts, if you can't tell lmao. It might become more coherent, it might now. Who knows!